Newborn Phase? Not a Fan! Posted on June 13, 2014 by Nate.
Disclaimer: This was written based upon my initial adjustment of fatherhood. This is not how I feel anymore. Follow up post will soon follow.
Quick! I need 10 Redbulls with 7 5hr Energy Chasers and 20 Advil! New nickname for the little man is now Kolicky Kade. Sleep? Sleep?! WTF is that?! Ohhh, yeah, now I remember. Sorry, I am trying to snap out of this wonderful state of delirium, that I didn’t even need to drink to get to!
People, this shit sucks! Yeah, I said it. I’m going to be honest here, all the excitement about becoming a Dad just went straight out the window after hour 72 of nothing but a couple of cat naps. The two weeks I was able to have off from work at first seemed like a new and different vacation. HELL NO! Nobody truly can warn you for what kinda battlefield you will enter during the newborn phase. Especially when laced with colic. Now, do I truly know if that’s the right diagnosis? Nope! But, whatever is going on, little man doesn’t like. Little Momma doesn’t like, and I’m pondering the thought of running out and frolicking in oncoming traffic.
Ok, ok, ok. Maybe I’m being a bit too harsh here, but seriously, I am not a fan of the newborn stage. The constant crying and the feeling like you are doing nothing but f#*%ing shit up sucks. And the worst part, is all this makes me feel less “IN LOVE” with him. I am really having a tough time connecting as a father. I search deep inside me, looking for that nurturing feeling that my wife just conjures up out of her ass anytime it’s needed. Where the hell is my ass nurture? Wait, that came out wrong…
Anyways, as I write this, I am reflecting back on my feelings at this time in our lives together, and I just want to tell my past self “Dude, it’s all good up ahead. Have no fear, bite down and just keep looking forward”. I also wanted to put my real feelings out there. Maybe for some poor Newbie Dad that feels the same way during this time. Newbie Dad, listen…it is ok to feel this way. We are not wired the same way that these IronMOM’s are, and it might just take us some more time to really feel the love. As Future Nate, I lay these words of wisdom down before you, because I damn sure needed it too!
Newborn Phase? Bleh!! Next phase please!!